Numbers 13: 25-33
"What are you looking at,
My Precious One? What is it that you see that is making you draw back
from the things I am calling you to do? Do you see that what you are
seeing is not what I see? Your spiritual vision is both blurry and OUT
OF FOCUS!
His words to me are like a daggers
to my heart. I long to follow My Lord where He leads me, but I am
finding, right now, that my gaze seems to fall, far too often, on the
giants of my life. While I am sure that God is able to
do the "exceedingly abundant works" in and through me, my thoughts are
consumed with what a "grasshopper" I am among my perceived giants.
While seeing my giants I am becoming more fully aware that what my weak
eyes behold is not at all what God sees.
The Hebrews had
the same problem. It was time to enter into the land that God had
promised them, but instead of believing that that land would be good for
them as God had told them, and obeying His call to take the land as
their own, they came up with their own "brilliant" idea. Instead of
entering in as an army of 603,550 able-bodied warriors (more than 1/2 a
million!), as Numbers 1:46 records, the great plan of the people was to
send in 12 men . . . 12 men! Twelve men versus a half-million men with
the Ark of the Covenant, the very Presence of God, leading the way!
Their 12 men brought their unbelief back from the Promised Land, but now
it was in full bloom. Though they had seen the great blessings of the
land, the only thing that they truly were looking at were the giant men
of the land. Everything else was out of focus, but to them, the giants
were the sharp image that was engraved on their unbelieving minds. And
they brought that picture into clear focus for all of the Hebrews.
"Why
didn't they believe what I had already told them? Why did they choose
unbelief instead of faith? They were afraid! Don't you see that you
are doing the same thing? I have called you to a ministry, and I have
shown you what the ministry will be. Will you now come up with your own
plan of attack that comes from a place of fear, a place that forgets or
disbelieves Me and all I have let you see?"
Again,
His painful questions penetrate my heart at just the place that my fear
resides. As I contemplate what He is saying to me, I am beginning to
see with His eyes my own fear of the unknown, what my "entering in" is
to look like, what the exact plan is to be when I cross into the
borders, and the deadly "what if I fail?". These are my giants that
are holding me back, the biggest one being my need to know the
blueprint of His plan. This is fear cloaked in control.
I
don't know where this quote came from, but it has been taped to my
bathroom mirror for several years now. It has ministered to me on
several occasions, especially during my book-writing days, but this
morning it is an empowered banner that beckons me back to faith. His
call to me is to step away from my own unbelief, to fall on my knees,
and surrender all my "plans" and all my "giants" to Him in faith that He will accomplish
what He has said He will do. I pray it is as much of a blessing to you
today as it is to me.
"Never give up on anything God has
told you to believe for; never quit doing anything He has clearly shown
you to do. Your diligence will pay off with a blessing from God."
"Now, go My Precious One, and see what I see. Focus on that! 'For I know the plans I have for you . . . plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope!'" (Jeremiah 29:11)
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